Thursday, January 14, 2010

Adoption: The NEW Pregnant

Don't you love it?! I certainly do!

WHAT A RELIEF!! Seriously, imagine for a moment with me. Being a woman of child bearing age, longing for a bundle of joy to swoon over yet those arms remain empty. You purchase your subscription to FertiltyFriend (at Christmas, on SALE), you dust off the BBT Thermometer, you realize it needs batteries. You buy a new BBT-T and realize you hate it but you've already started charting and you CANNOT get a new one at this point. You count down days, you psych yourself up for when your OV Watch says 'FERTILE DAY 1" and when it does you hang a hang a sign on the door and change the outgoing answer machine message "Leave us alone for 36 hours." Only to SUFFER through the TWW (two week wait for you who are not TTC--trying to conceive). Then on CD30/15DPO (again, Cycle Day 30, 15 Days Past Ovulation) there's that witch: AF (Aunt Flo).


Ugh.


But... what if?! What if you can avoid all of the headache, hassle, pain, disappointment, hatred of all things "pregnant?" What if?

What if you had a certainty that another child will be a part of your life. One that didn't grow under your heart--but has been growing in it for years before being placed in your home? What joy, what relief, what a blessing?

These are the conversations that took place in my house last night. Praise God in all the Heavens and on Earth. The healing process begins. I can no longer mourn the child that I have not been able to conceive. I pray for the one I know God is developing, maybe even now, I pray for the mother who will find herself in a seemingly impossible situation, I pray for the hurdles we will have to overcome--hurdles which are different from TTC. I pray for the preparation of our lives, our finances, our son and our family. We stand alongside of one another surrounded by our Father in Heaven and walk when he says walk. Our arms are wide open and we anxiously await the directions from our Lord and Savior; whom I know holds me in the palm of His hand.

"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous, do not be terrified; do not be DISCOURAGED, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9

2 comments:

Maddie said...

so very true!

Andrea said...

God bless you for your beautiful mother's heart!

Awesome post!

In Christ,

Andrea